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I'm tired of having a big ass.. I've never been a real skinny girl, and I'm ok with that. But the size I am now, and have been for a while now has really taken over who I feel like I am. This body is not mine! Lol. I've been working hard to change it. One hour a day, every week day, for going on 3 weeks now. I'm feeling much more energetic. And my swimsuit bottoms aren't quite as tight. Lol. That's all that has changed so far.. But that's ok cuz I know its taken me years to get this way, change will not happen over night! Patience, patience, patience!

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I'm tired of having this huge hole in my heart that every wonderful person in my life continuously tries to fill! It's not fair for anyone. Its so hard for me to get really close to anyone, even ppl I love and who I know love me... It's like it's safer to keep some distance because I always feel like they are going to leave or die or let me down or something. I do not want to be this way! It's cost me alot in my life! But I can not help it. It's like he was the one thing I knew would always be there but he wasn't, he couldn't be, not his choice, just his time.....

What brought this on... Watched the sweetest movie last night.. Waiting for forever.. The dad in the movie was sick, and died. It was like someone poured alcohol in the hole in myheart. I broke into the ugly cry. I'm so tired of this feeling!!  Its been 7 years....

Ok, I'm done now :S

Reduce, recycle, reuse.

Did you know hefty makes garbage bags that are made of 65% recycled material?? They are called Renew by hefty. And aquafina water makes water bottles out of 50% less plastic than other bottles??

Think about products before buying them! :) hope everyone is having a great sunday!

Some more RANDOMNESS!!

THought for the day....
I know absolutely nothing about my family history. Well, very little anyway. Daddy always tried  to tell me things and being the stubborn, hard-headed Tidwell I am.. most of it went in one ear and out the other...  at the time, what did i care? WHy would I want to know things about my grandparents who I never met, who died before I was even thought about... why would that ever be important to me? Weeelllll guess what? Now I want to know. I want to know every memory my Daddy had of his childhood, the good, the bad, and the ugly.. Buuuutttt.... he's not here anymore. So I will have to make do with accounts of my Aunts and Uncle. Which will be great but just not the same..

For those of you who don't know.. this blog has and will always have statements about my Daddy.. I could write the whole blog about him and my feelings and the way his death absolutely changed every fiber of my being, but I won't...  I don't want ppl to feel sorry for me, that's not the point. The point is, I have things to say,  if you want to know, read, and if you don't, good day :)

ANyway....  Back to the subject at hand.... keep a journal.... write down things for your children, memories, thoughts, experiences... anything... one day when you are no longer here to tell them things, they will want to know! Leave some sort of account of your life. Your simple, fabulous, boring, sad, happy, excited, depressed, normal life. Because that's what life is.. it's the combination of all these emotions.. Leave yours for your children because we are never promised another day.. LOVE! PEACE!

reCYcle. PLeaSe.

Please consider recycling something... Do your part for the planet, and the animals of the planet.   :)

 

American’s use 2.5 million plastic bottles every hour.

Plastic bags and other plastic garbage thrown into the ocean kill as many as 1,000,000 sea creatures every year! Ever heard of the Great Pacific Garbage Patch? Its twice the size of Texas and floating somewhere between San Francisco and Hawaii. It’s 80% plastic and weighs in at 3.5 million tons!

www.dosomething.org

Most of our waste today is comprised of plastic. Plastic, which is made from petroleum, is a material that the Earth cannot digest. Every bit of plastic that has ever been created still exists, except for a small amount that has been incinerated, releasing toxic chemicals.

In the ocean, plastic waste accumulates in swirling seas of debris, where plastic to sea life ratios are 6:1; where birds and mammals are dying of starvation and dehydration with bellies full of plastics; where fish are ingesting toxins at such a rate that soon they will no longer be safe to eat.

The largest of these garbage swills is known as the Pacific Gyre, or The Great Garbage Patch.

www.greatgarbagepatch.org

Tree hugger? No. Aware? I try to be. Again, another –Ness! Awareness! I’ve always had a huge soft spot for animals. Any and all animals. An old episode of Oprah opened my eyes to the impact plastic has on our oceans. The show was about the Plastiki Project. The Plastiki was a boat made of plastic bottles that sailed around the ocean to bring awareness to this issue. It hurts my heart to know that animals of the ocean are suffering because of our stupidity. SO… I’ve tried very hard to recycle as much plastic as I can. I didn’t realize how much plastic we actually use at home. I usually have a full garbage bag full of plastic per week from home! That’s a huge amount of plastic I’m keeping out of the landfill. Just remember…. every single piece of un-recycled plastic ever produced is still in existence! What kind of world do you want to leave for future generations? Try to recycle at least one thing, may it be plastic, paper, glass… do your part. Please.

4Th of JuLy 2011!

Me & Leslie

SOOO.... my blogging kind of fell off the MAP! Sorry about that... I'm going to try to do better. LOL. I'm thinking of changing my blog title, because obviously I'm not very good at a picture a day for a year. ANy good ideas anyone?

Today's post is just a collage of the 4th of July. Randomness. Fun weekend for sure!! Makes me miss AlabAma.  :S  Ready to go back!  

Fire works over Duncan Bridge. Fabulous!



Melissa & Me!



Best dang centerpiece ever!

                                                                                                                                           

                  

                            



CraZy bOys! Double wakesurfing!



                                                      

                                        

                      



Melissa wakeboards for the 1st time!!



Leslie



















                                    

TIred girls! Molly & GInger!