We just didn't really know how close till yesterday...
First off, let me explain how much this place means to me.. There is something about summer time on the lake that fills an empty place in my soul. The sunshine, the water, being with friends, its just an indescribable feeling.. Anyone that has had it knows what I'm taking about.. But then again, maybe no one really knows but me..
When clay and I first started coming to smith lake, daddy was sick, i knew he was dying, I was 18, I was so confused about everything, my life had been turned completely upside down, I was a complete mess! I do have a lot of regrets from this time period, but those are not up for discussion today.. :/ anyhow, the happiness I experienced at the lake was an amazing feeling, especially at that time.. I didn't have to worry about anything that was wrong in my life, I didn't have to think about life without John Tidwell.. I didn't have to think, period.. Anyone who has experienced a great loss or tragedy knows that any escape from your personal hell is, well, there isn't a word for the feeling, it's simply amazing..
Smith Lake was escape from my hell, a 2 hour drive straight into heaven...
The lake has a rock bottom so the water is super clean! Not muddy & murky like typical lake water... It's just beautiful.
July 4th 2004 clay proposed to me at our old lake place, which was about hundred yards from where we are now.. You can stand at our new place & throw a rock & hit the spot where the old trailer stood..
Smith Lake is just very, very dear to my heart.. I have so many wonderful memories from there.. Yellow Creek to be exact...
Anyway.. Late last Tuesday night/early Wednesday morning, an f1 tornado danced all around our little lake house... The road to the house looked like a bomb exploded.. Even though by the time we got to go check it all out, we knew the house and the houses closest to us, were fine, there was still a terrible sinking feeling driving down the road to the house.. It's a miracle our houses were standing, with no damage... The yard and the boat dock weren't so lucky, but nothing that can't be replaced or repaired.. Thank goodness!
Our little lake house isn't much, but it means the world to me. So grateful it's still there!
(Actually blogged the first wk of feb, but edited march 6th)
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